So there’s only one more day left in 2018 and I am emotionally drained. You may ask why I am emotionally drained and the simple answer is, guys. During this time last year I went on a couple of dates with a guy and I didn’t know where it would go but I knew I wanted it to go somewhere. If it went somewhere I wouldn’t be writing this post right now, lol. We went on a few dates shortly after we matched on a dating site which is rare because I feel like I rarely meet up with people that I match with on dating sites. But anyway that’s besides the point. The point is I keep on ending up in these situations where I either go on dates or hang out with guys ending up like them and they simply say that they want to be friends. I am actually in a similar situation right now where I hung out with a guy a couple of times, ended up developing feelings, but you guessed it… they say I’m a nice girl but they only see me as a friend.
This makes me extremely upset because it’s just like what about me only makes me appealable as a friend? I guess I’ll never know. One thing I do know is that I don’t really want to feel like this again. There’s no guarantee that this won’t happen as it has happened almost too many times to count but I guess I can try to protect my heart in the best way that I can. However, this is easier said than done because I am probably the most emotional person I know. I love extremely hard and when I like someone, I really like them. But don’t get me wrong, I have very high standards so it’s not like I go around liking every guy I come in contact with but after communicating with a person for a few days and meeting them I can gauge what I’d like to come from the situation. And again as you guessed it, what I’ve wanted from a situation has never been the result, go figure.
So I’m hoping next year, I’ll have less of these situations and end up in a relationship. The title of the post is “Can You Imagine” because the song “Imagine” by Ariana Grande has been on repeat since it came out a couple of weeks ago. Everything about the song is so relatable to me as I love ballads and the lyrics are perfect for describing how I envision a relationship with whatever I like at the time. One of the lines of the song is “Why can’t you imagine a world like that?” which is a question I always ask myself when guys don’t imagine me as being a the girlfriend type. So anyway, this song is perfect for the post.
So getting back to the main point, I am hoping that next year I find my person because I am tired of going through these little situations only to come out sad and still single. Though this year is ending on a not- so- happy note I am looking forward to the new year and everything that it brings including love, hopefully.
