So I contemplated writing this post, but it’s something that I have been constantly thinking about… When I was a little girl I can remember cherishing the times I spent with my friends and I felt that I valued the time I was able to spend with them immensely. As I got older I started reflecting on why I valued my friends so much and then I realized it was probably because I did not have any siblings. When I was in elementary and middle school I was able to develop a strong group of friends and though we still keep in touch we aren’t as close as I hoped we would be right now in our lives. When I went to college I was hopeful that this would change, as many people told me that you make your life-long friends in college, which I definitely did make forever-type friendships. However, more times than not, I feel that I don’t belong. I feel that I love my friends more than I love myself, which honestly hurts to say, but is true. I find myself envying those “ride or die” type friendships because I’ve always wanted that type of friendship but feel like I have not had that in my adult-life. I know I can’t possibly be the only person who experiences these feelings, but it’s difficult for me to see that when friendships are frequently displayed and flaunted on social media. I am writing this partly to express my feelings, but also to be transparent about what I am dealing with in hopes that if anyone else feels this way they will know that they are not alone. One of my main goals when I started Shygirl Sentiments was that I would always represent my authentic self and be as genuine as possible, so here I am.
